One of my goals is to be transparent for the purpose of encouraging others. I want to be honest. I still struggle from time to time with Candida overgrowth. I fall short of my goals in lowering stress or occasionally eating something I shouldn’t. It is a process and life is constantly changing for better or worse. I have to continue using the tools I have at hand to fight the battle, take courage, and ask for help.
Circumstances sometimes kick me in a direction and down a path I never intended. This time it was my daughter’s health. She had been dealing with occasional pain in her hip and back. Then it worsened. I took her to my chiropractor and a physical therapist in November. My daughter was assigned exercises that she didn’t think would help. I told her to try for a solid month, and I would reevaluate. After Christmas vacation, she found herself in worse pain. At the beginning of February, we went to another physical therapist that was more thorough and really jived with my daughter. He had a more genuine concern. She was assigned exercises to do, and he referred us to a pediatric sports clinic. Long story short, we drove to several appointments out of town, MRI’s, blood testing, a cat scan, etc. During all this extra physical and emotional turmoil, I fulfilled my work and homeschool commitments. I kept saying, “I have to do this for her.” It will be fine. I was getting tired but seemed okay otherwise.
One day I was driving with my kids, and they had upset me. I started raising my voice and got this eerie feeling. I looked around, and I was in the same exact place I had been 3 years ago right before I started the Candida diet. It was the place I got a speeding ticket as I was yelling at my kids. I didn’t see the school zone sign, and I was so upset that I had no awareness of where I was. When I realized this was the place, I thought how did I end up in this place…mentally and physically? I don’t usually go down this road. Have I relapsed and fallen so far? I’m just going to shut my mouth and drive.
There were a couple of other warning signs prior that week that I chose to ignore. I could feel myself being more easily irritated, and I started withdrawing a little. I ate some pasta at work because someone gave me some. I’m usually stronger than that, but I ate 3/4 cup. I felt so guilty. I actually went home and cried about it as I confessed it to my husband. When did I lose control? This was just going to fuel the fire and feed Candida. That was a turning point for me. I had to get back on track. The next morning I started grapefruit seed extract, took 1-2 extra probiotic tablets per day, and colloidal silver spray on my throat. I take Dr. Axe Candida Combat probiotics. You can find them here: https://store.draxe.com/products/candida-combat I was now mentally ready to fight.
I was also struggling emotionally with my daughter’s new diagnosis which was Osteoid osteoma. I was told that there was a benign tumor on her femur. We would have to continue to monitor it and take ibuprofen as necessary to manage the pain. It would continue to cause pain/inflammation until she was done growing which they estimated to be about another year. The Dr. also suggested that surgery would not be beneficial. I am not a fan of prescription drugs or ibuprofen unless absolutely necessary, especially long-term. What effects would that have on her body?
Within a few days, I started to physically and mentally feel better and thought the battle was over. Unfortunately, I was wrong. By the end of the following week, I was too weak to work out. I fell asleep on the couch while my kids were doing school. I couldn’t concentrate. I was emotionally raw. I found myself crying and telling God I didn’t think I could go through this again. I felt too tired to fight. I called a friend and asked her to pray for me.
By this time, I knew it was the whole process with my daughter that was stressing me. As soon as we got my daughter’s diagnosis, I was trying to fix it. I was informing her that she needed to go on an anti-inflammatory diet. I ordered some healing teas, and I reiterated that she needed to be on fish oil for inflammation and probiotics for general gut health. I began nagging her about rubbing frankincense oil on the sight of pain because it helps with cysts, growths, and inflammation. You can read more about frankincense here: https://draxe.com/what-is-frankincense/ I also made sure she was applying turmeric oil to reduce inflammation. You can read more about turmeric here: https://draxe.com/turmeric-benefits/ I told her to keep a food journal that documented what she ate and how she felt.
My motherly instinct of fixing my kid crashed into the pre-teen attitude of my child. It was a huge messy collision. With tensions rising, stress and sickness affecting my brain, I started breaking down. I realized once again that I was at the end of myself. I can’t even fix myself, let alone her. She needed to take responsibility by taking action steps, and I needed to continue to pray it out and let go. I let the reins go and said, “Ok, do what you want, but see how you feel. I can’t do this for you.”
“Being at the end of myself” keeps coming back to me. When will I learn this lesson? I can never be more than I am, a mortal human being. I can’t do this on my own. I can’t continue to carry the fears and burdens I am not equipped to carry. Someone last week said, “I know you always make the right choice. I think what would Nicoletta do?” As flattering as that was, I responded, “I’m just trying to figure it out like everyone else.” Honestly, I don’t have all the answers. I am far from perfect. The only wisdom I have is what God has given me. “If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.” James 1:5 I continue to ask and wait.
After about a week of worse pain, my daughter decided to try an anti-inflammatory diet. It was a great step for both of us. I have been praying for her, not nagging her. She has accepted more responsibility and realized she doesn’t know it all. We are working together and talking through it. It has still been a roller coaster with pain fluctuations. She was better for a couple of days, then down the next few days. She has been relying on ibuprofen more than she or I like. We started golden paste a week ago and we are waiting to see the results of that. It is supposed to decrease inflammation which in turn decreases pain. Here is the recipe:
This recipe may be used for humans as well as animals.
- 1/2 cup (125 mls/60gms) turmeric powder
- 1 cup water (250 mls) PLUS 1 cup water in reserve, if needed
- 1/3 cup (70 mls) one of the following oils: Raw (unrefined) Cold Pressed Coconut Oil, Linseed (flaxseed) oil or Virgin/Extra Virgin Olive Oil
- 2-3 teaspoons freshly ground black pepper
Bring the turmeric and water to a boil, then lower the heat and simmer until you have a thick paste. This should take about 7-10 minutes and you may need to add additional water along the way.
Add the freshly ground pepper and oil at the end of cooking, when the turmeric and water mixture has cooled down to just warm. Stir well to incorporate the oil and allow to cool.
The Golden Paste will keep for 2 weeks, refrigerated. Freeze a portion if you think you have too much to use within two weeks.
We are still searching for answers and trying new natural remedies. It has been emotionally exhausting to watch my child go through this and not have the ability to fix it. I have to continue to pray and trust that God has a plan better than mine. I have to give up the thought that I have control because it only makes me sick. I have to be well so I can help her.
As we looked for anti-inflammatory food and recipes, she found some muffin recipes she liked. It is helpful that we are on similar diets. We are not starting from scratch. An anti-inflammatory diet is basically low to no carbs, no dairy or occasional goat cheese, gluten-free, low to no sugar, and high in vegetables. Eating natural foods instead of processed foods is also part of the diet. There are also natural anti-inflammatory foods like walnuts, blueberries, and broccoli. Click on the link for more anti-inflammatory foods: https://draxe.com/anti-inflammatory-foods/ We are also focusing on good gut health by taking probiotics. Here are some more ideas for healing foods: https://draxe.com/healing-diet/ Here’s an article on inflammation and disease: https://draxe.com/inflammation-at-the-root-of-most-diseases/
I will end with this week’s blog with muffin recipes she liked:
Paleo Banana Nut Muffins
- Total Time:35 minutes
- Yield:12 muffins
- 2 cups almond meal
- 1/3 cup coconut flour
- 1/2 tsp baking soda
- 1 tsp baking powder
- 1/2 tsp cinnamon
- 1/2 tsp sea salt
- 3 large very ripe bananas, mashed*
- 1/4 cup unsweetened almond milk
- 2 T honey
- 3 eggs
- 1 tsp vanilla extract
- 1/2 cup chopped nuts
- Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.
- In a large bowl combine almond meal, coconut flour, baking soda, baking powder, cinnamon and sea salt.
- In a separate bowl combine bananas, almond milk, honey, eggs and vanilla extract.
- Slowly add wet ingredients to dry and stir until just combined. Stir in nuts.
- Line a muffin tray with muffin liners or grease well and fill each cup 3/4 full.
- Bake for 25 minutes.
- Remove from oven and let cool in the tray for 20 minutes before removing from tray to cool completely on a wire rack.
- Will keep in an airtight container on the counter for 3 days or longer in the refrigerator.
Paleo Blueberry Muffins
- 2 cups blanched almond flour
- 1/2 cup tapioca starch (I used arrowroot powder)
- 1/2 teaspoon baking soda
- 1/2 teaspoon baking powder (gluten-free)
- 1/8 teaspoon sea salt
- 3 large eggs
- 1/4 – 1/3 cup honey
- 1/4 cup melted virgin coconut oil, ghee or pastured butter
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 1 cup fresh blueberries
- Preheat the oven to 325 degrees F.
- Grease a regular size muffin tin or line with paper liners.
- Mix (or sift) the dry ingredients together in a medium bowl.
- Whisk the eggs, honey, oil, and vanilla in another bowl.
- Pour the wet ingredients into the bowl with the dry ingredients and stir until well combined.
- Gently stir the blueberries into the batter.
- Spoon into 12 muffin tins. (They will be fairly full)
- Bake for 20-25 minutes until slightly golden on top.
- Serve warm